Where did it go? My week that is.

What am I doing writing this blog? I have no idea because as of now (Sunday night at 5:30pm) I haven't packed (or cleaned) a thing. Remember this, ya well I had a week, but I'm not sure where it went because now I have less than 24 hours!!!

Best I can figure the week was spent visiting a sweet baby girl in the NICU, celebrating my little man's birthday, helping a friend celebrate her little man's 3rd birthday (a little early), playing volleyball, voting a new head pastor in, cooking, cleaning, keeping a mischief little walking one year old girl out of cabinets, drawers, closets, bathrooms, you name it, f it can open she is trying to get in it and I am trying to keep her out, oh and best of all trying to find a little alone time with my MAIN man. So, yeah I guess I do know where my week went I was just hoping to get some packing and laundry in there somewhere but it didn't happen. So, oh well. To bad because you can't pack if you don't have clean clothes and you can't clean if you have a Jericho. Ok so that second statement is a little bit of an exageration, usually she's great and I can get some cleaning done with her around, but not today. Today, it just wasn't working, nothing was working, but now it's bed time. That's a good thing! A very good thing. After I get her down you better watch out because my mad cleaning/packing/baking (for the trip) skill are going to come unleashed. I can already feel myself getting in the zone! I'm a women with a mission and you're not going to want to get in my way.


Oh and since we are going to be in the middle of now where (seriously we don't get phone or internet there) I probably won't be talking to ya for about a week. So, have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

1st Steps

I've been meaning to post this video for weeks now but haven't gotten around to it. Truly it's for the grandparents. They are so far away and even though we'll get to see Seth's parents next week and mine for Christmas there is nothing like a child's 1st steps. Here are Jericho's!

Happy 3rd Birthday Gideon

Gideon,

How do I write a letter to you?

How do I express myself when I don't know exactly what I'm feeling?

How do I tell you that I want to know what Heaven is like. I don't want to be there I know my purpose here on Earth is not yet fulfilled, but I want to know what your days are like. How awesome is it getting to praise our creator 24/7? What is your favorite things to do in Heaven? I bet the food is amazing! Do you have a favorite? I want to know what you are doing right now. While daddy, Jericho and I celebrate your 3rd birthday what are you doing?

On your last two birthday I had more thoughts of what life would be like if you were here with us. Somewhere between this year and last I realized that you were never supposed to be here with us. God knew all a long that your life would be short and you were not meant to be with us for long. I'm only just beginning to realize it. This year it has made me look at things differently. It has made me wonder, not what would life be like if you were here, although I still do that on occasion, but what are things like for you, where you're at. When I think of you these are the questions I've been asking myself. I do not dwell on these question long because I know I will not get an answer until I see Heaven with my own eyes, but I have them just the same. Because you are in Heaven I want to know what Heaven is like. What mama doesn't want to know what it's like where her son is living.

You had a doctor while you were in the NICU named Dr. Chess. Do you remember her? You might not remember her but you probably know her son Jacob, he is in Heaven with you, as of last Monday he would be 21. He died the day he was born. I asked Dr. Chess if the pain ever goes away. She sent an email with her answer, "Your wife asked if the pain ever goes away. Unfortunately, the answer is no. Fortunately, as time goes on, the fond memories and a better understanding of what else in one’s life has been enhanced by the situation bring an ever deeper understanding, and with that understanding, a sense of peace. Relish your memories, and enjoy your family, of which Gideon is, and always will be, a part."

Dr. Chess is right Gideon, because of you I have gained a better understanding of how my life has been enhanced. I laugh louder, mourn harder, love deeper, and praise God more, because of you. Thank you son!

Happy 3rd Birthday Bub!

I love you!

I miss you!

To the moon & back,
Mama

A Father's Heart

Seth sent the following email (bold words are my emphasis) on December 16, 2005. For 26 days he had been sending daily, sometimes even hourly updates on Gideon. By December 16, 2005 we had already been told twice that Gideon would not make it thought the night. Twice Gideon made it thought the night. Sometimes we still question why we saw so many miracles in Gideon's life if God was still planning on bringing home. Why not take him the first or the second time he was in a life and death situation? Today when I read Seth's words (the ones below in bold) 3 years after they were written, it is obvious to me that the first and the second time Gideon's purpose was not yet fulfilled, but on January 1st 2006 it was.

My heart as the father of Gideon Uriah Goodson can never express the thanks and appreciating that Tarah and I have for all of your prayers. My emails have seemed at times full of faith while inside such fear of burying my first son. Tarah and I lost our first beautiful baby girl Grace only in February of this year. She was 16 weeks in the womb when we lost her. We have a beautiful stone with her name on it along with the verse May Grace be with you... I say all that to tell you through this struggle there have been many moments when I thought to myself how can I have two stones for two children in one year. The pain that comes with the thought of losing another child, while also watching my wife who is and will be an amazing mother, knowing that God has called to be to raise mighty men and women of God, is to much to bear. I feel as if I'm watch her dreams slip away. Faith has come and gone in this battle for me and I thank you for holding our arms up in this battle and at times fighting for us. Many times it feels as if we are laying on the ground being punched over and over again. We thank you for stepping in and taking a few punches for us. We are bloody, battered, and bruised but still fighting till our last breath.

Two things strike me as I read the story of Gideon to Gideon. in the 13 vs of Judges 6 Gideon is wondering where the God is that saved his fathers from the Egyptians now that they were facing the Midianites. This has been me, "God why have you saved Gideon from an infection to only watch him die from a lung problem?" God clearly spoke to my heart and told me as I saved Gideon's fathers from the Egyptians and sent Gideon to destroy the Midianites know that I have saved Gideon from the diseases and that I will continue to save him from anything that comes against him. Gideon is invincible until my purposes are done with him. God was showing me no matter the circumstance he is still in control.

The second item God showed me was a Gideon went against an army outnumbering him by thousands and had camels more numerous than the sand on the sea shore that God chose only a few to fight with him. All of you praying God has chosen you to walk beside Gideon and fight next to him. We thank you for allowing your hearts to be pricked by the life of my son and fighting this battle. You are all truly mighty warriors that have taken up your sword next to my son. My heart cannot express the love and the passion I have for all of you. Thank you.

Gideon's Daddy,
Seth



This is the email Seth wrote today as we visited the hospital in celebration and honor of Gideon on his 3rd Birthday.

It has been 3 years since these emails began. They told the story of a Mighty Warrior one who against all odds continue to fight battles bigger than he was. He took on giants that no one of his caliber had ever slayed. Today I sit in the same library that I sent all those emails 3 years ago. It's hard to be sitting here without my son, I want my son with me. I want to play catch with him, I want to chase him around the house, I want to see what he would of become. With all the emotions of this day I can still say what I said 3 years ago MY GOD IS GOOD. He does comfort those who mourn. We are still in the process of grieving and God is still in the process of comforting us. He has never left us or forsaken us. I sit here today declaring God is good. Tarah, Myself and our beautiful 15 month old daughter Jericho are doing well. God's hand has been on us and His love is beyond any words that I can express. I wish I had time to tell you all that God has done for us, but when I walked into the Library today I knew I must write to you and remind you of the time we had with Gideon. The precious things I know God did in your heart and lives as we gathered together in prayer. Thank you and we love all of you and we pray that Christ's transforming love continue to saturate your lives.

Still Gideon's Daddy,
Seth

I have such an amazing husband. He is an incredible daddy! No wonder my little man was such a mighty warrior! He took after his daddy.

I miss Gideon

I miss him.

I miss Gideon.

That's all there is to it.

I miss him so much.

I go the privilege to go visit Mercedes in the NICU yesterday and what a privilege it was. She is such a sweet little thing. And Jude the little dude that has so quickly stolen my heart and I haven't even meet him yet. Both of these little ones are in the NICU. Both will get to go home soon. I wish you could understand how tremendously happy and excited I am about this wonderful news. Hearing all the marvelous updates and getting to talk to the parents of these sweet babies has been such a blessing. It's also been a little hard. I can't help but think about our time in the NICU and how different the out come was for us. Please don't think I'm feeling sorry for myself or that I'm wanting your sympathy or that I'm having a pity party, I'm just missing my little man.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about my nephew and Mercedes and getting ready for vacation and how big Jericho is getting and how hot my hubby is and how naughty my puppy is (yeah he's been running off again) and a million other things. I have not consciously been thinking much about Gideon but my heart has been thinking about him. I don't know how I can explain this but I know it's true. It's like my heart knows that Gideon's birthday is coming and it can't help but have it's strings pulled in his direction.

Like today for example. I was getting so much done. I baked a bunch of pumpkins so I can puree them later tonight or tomorrow. I got more appropriate clothes (we're going to GA for vacation) out of storage for Jericho. I set a few gifts that we need to take to GA out so that they could be wrapped. I did some laundry and so on. In between it all Jericho and I would read or talk or play. Things were good. Then I lay Jericho down for a nap and sit down for a second and bam! The overwhelming feeling that I am going to cry, no that I need to cry, unexpectedly hit. And cry I did. Not uncontrollably, not loudly, just quiet soft tears that took a while to stop. I knew it was because I was missing Gideon. I had been to busy ,partly on purpose, I hadn't given myself the time that my heart needed to think about Gideon.

At times it's still hard to think about Gideon. It's hard because I want him here with me, yet I do not want to deprive him of what he now has. In Heaven, what Gideon has, with Jesus is far greater than anything Seth or I could ever offer him here on Earth, in our home. Sometimes it's so hard to admit this because as a mommy there is not better place for your child than at home with you. If I could imagine what Heaven is like maybe it would be a little easier to admit, but my mind is not capable of such a task. Every time I try to imagine Heaven I still think that Gideon would be better off with me, so I know that I am not even close to imagining what Heaven truly is like. I know nothing will ever compare to Heaven not even a warm, happy, love filled home like ours. Can you see how my heart it torn? The mommy in me so deeply longs to hold my son again, here on Earth because I am here on Earth, but for Gideon's sake I'm glad he is in Heaven. It's so hard to explain, it's so hard to understand, it's so hard to admit that Gideon really is better off in Heaven where I'm not, simply because it's Heaven.

This doesn't mean that I don't miss him because I do.
I miss him more than I can express.
I always will.

A Week

When you find out a week before you are going on vacation that you are going on vacation for a week that week before is going to be a little hectic.

Did you get that?

Let me explain it a little better.

We are going on vacation.

We are going on vacation for a week.

We are going on vacation for a week, next week.

We are going on vacation for a week, next week, a week from today to be exact.

We are going on vacation for a week, next week, a week from today to be exact, but we just found this out this week.

We are going on vacation for a week, next week, a week from today to be exact, but we just found out this week, yesterday to be exact.

I have a lot to do.

Baby Updates

It's time for some baby updates

Jude, my newest nephew, is doing much better today. He had fluid on his lungs, an infection, he was having a hard time breathing and he wouldn't eat. Because of all these things the doctors thought it was be best to put him in the NICU just to be safe. With our NICU family history, mainly Gideon dying, this was very scary for all of us. Today as we've received a few more answers we are much more at peace and able to celebrate Jude's arrival. They still don't know what kind of infection he has (they will find out tomorrow) but he has been responding wonderfully to the antibiotics they have him on. To help Jude out with his breathing they put him on a CPAP so he would get the extra oxygen he needed. They plan on taking him off it either later tonight or tomorrow. He is now eating from a bottle (or feeding tubes at times) and Elizabeth will try to bre*stfeed him tomorrow. The little man is doing good! The doctors say he will be able to go home Thursday. They want to keep him till then so that he gets a full 7 days on the antibiotics. No matter how long (or short) a baby is in the NICU it's never easy to be without your child so please continue to pray for Khane, Elizabeth and Jude till Jude is safely home.

Mercedes passed her 7 day count down a week ago and is now keeping her body temperature up which means she will be going home soon! They think she'll be home before Thanksgiving. What a gift from God! When a baby is born premature and has to go in the NICU they tell the parents to not expect their baby to go home until the original due date. Mercedes due date was December 12, she will be going home almost 4 weeks early! This is a miracle. The doctors have never seen a baby do as well in the NICU as Mercedes is doing. Monday Mercedes will be 9 weeks old. She is now a little over 3 lb 7 oz. Here mommy and daddy have been keeping people updated here. Please go congratulate Aaron & Kathy on being able to bring Mercedes home soon!

Remember Joshua? His mommy, Susie, is pregnant again and they just found out what they are having (and that the baby and everything else on the ultrasound looks perfect PTL!) go find out and congratulate her too! (Susie if you're reading this know that we are soooo excited for you! and we also praying for ya. Love ya girl!)

Last but certainly not least my sister, Thea and hubby Adam, found out they are having a BOY! I'm so excited! Hooray for NEPHEWS!

Welcoming, Congratulating & Praying

Welcome
Jude Michael
Born last night at 8:07 pm

Weighing 9 lbs even
and measuring 20.5 in

Congratulations Khane & Elizabeth!

Please pray because:
They think that Jude has in infection in his lungs.
He hasn't nursed yet.
He had to stay in the nursery,
instead of in the room with his mommy.

We are excited baby Jude is here!
but please be praying for him
and his mommy & daddy.

*Elizabeth is doing great. I'll keep you posted on Jude.*

Making Decisions & Waiting

There are some decisions to be made. I can't give you details. At least not right now. They are BIG life changing decisions. The kind that take a lot of thought and much prayer. The kind of decisions that everyone hates to make. Usually the kind that end up being the best (or worst) decisions that you ever made. Hopefully the kind that, when looking back, there are no regrets. Do you know what I'm talking about?

Have I mentioned that deciding what to do in these types of situations is not fun? Oh, I have? Ok good I just wanted to be sure you knew. What gives me peace as we seek a decision is this, in our 4 years of marriage Seth and I have been united in every major decision we have had to make and we also have no major regrets in those decisions. Now don't get me wrong there have been plenty of other things that we have done foolishly and I thank God they haven't resulted in any major damage . But we have sought the Lord in everything major decision and He has made our next steps clear to us. I know He will make it clear to us once again. God has been, is, and will continue to be faithful till the end. Praise the Lord.

Know what is hard during these times - waiting for direction. Know what's even harder to not make any stupid decisions while we wait (because of our impatience) How is one to know weather God is providing in an obvious way or if he is testing telling you to be patient knowing He will provide in a different less obvious way.

Jericho please take a nap....for your mama's sake

Jericho is in that "she doesn't need two naps to make it through the day but she really does if everyone is going to stay sane around dinner time" stage. Yeah you know what I'm talking about. That fun stage of figuring out how to get from two naps to one. From what I remember of babysitting and friends kids if they are down to one nap it comes after lunch. Well since Jericho likes to do things in her own way this was not going to work for her. She doesn't want to be like everyone else. She needs a nap 3 hours after she wakes up and if she gets a good 2 hours nap and we are out and about she is good to go till bed time. BUT if we are home that one nap doesn't quite cut it. So what I do is give her a long nap in the morning and sometime between 3-4 I lay her down again. Usually she won't sleep but she will quietly play for about an hour. If she does sleep it's only for 20 minutes or so, just long enough to make it till bedtime. It's great because Jericho gets the rest time she needs even if needs even if she doesn't sleep and gives her the chance to sleep if she needs it. It also gives me time to get dinner going. So far this has worked well for us.

Except for today. Today Jericho only took a 20 minute nap this morning. Imagine my shock. What was I going to do. I had already prepped the bathroom for the clean of it's life. I had the gloves on and was armed with a toothbrush. The whole nine yards. I had already started on the sink but hadn't made it to the toilet or the shower before I head it.....

Jericho going down the step

....the cry. The cry that says "might as well come and get me mama because I'm not going back to sleep" I can usually tell from the moment I hear Jericho's cry what kind it is going to be. I don't like that cries especially when I'm in the middle of cleaning! I tried to ignore it. I tried to pretend that it was a "don't worry about me mama I'll go back to sleep just give me a minute" cry instead but alas my mommy instincts kicked in and went and got my baby girl. I was wondering how Jericho would do with only a twenty minute nap and so far she's been pretty good. We did practice walking up and down our one little step though so it was worth it. We did that for oh about 45 minutes straight. But that's how she wanted to spend her play time with me so that's how we spent it. She was insistent that she had to be hold my finger in order to do it properly. It's as if Jericho thinks she has to perfect every part of walking, stairs and all, before she will really put all her effort into walking alone. When she does put a little effort forth into walking it's adorable because she does great and she is so proud of herself! I love watching her learn how to walk. I'm learning so much about her as I watch the process.

Anyways, it's a little after 2pm and I'm going to put Jericho down for her 2nd nap early in hopes that maybe this time she will sleep for 2 hours. Wish me luck. I need to get the bathroom cleaned so I can shower so I can put makeup on and do my hair. Wanna see what I'm looking like at the moment? I'm warning you it's scary.


See I told you. This is what I look like when I take my make-up off (not that I really wear much,) shower at night and go to bed with my hair wet. Kinda scary (ok ok very scary.) You really do need to pray that Jericho takes a good nap because I need a shower and time to get ready we have FPU class tonight and I don't want to frighten everyone. But if you see a green eyed, no make-up wearing, lips go weird when she smiles, crazy haired women roaming the halls for Elim Gospel Church tonight don't worry it's just me. I'm heading to class and chances are Jericho didn't take that nap that I'm hoping for.

More random thougths while I wait for my love

My hubby's not home (but he will be just late, way late) and I don't want to go to bed without him. So, I'm waiting up for him. To keep myself awake I'm blogging. I don't know if it's going to work. He may find me asleep at the computer. I can feel my eyes getting heavier by the moment.

I might be an aunt by morning. I mean again. I'm already an aunt so this babe isn't making me an aunt but he's making me an aunt again. Uhh yeah, ya know what I mean.

All the pastor's wives are getting together tomorrow for brunch. We've never all gotten together on our own. It should be fun. I'm excited.

Jericho needs a new car seat. She's never minded riding in the car until now, she doesn't like that she is still facing backwards. Sometimes when I try to put her in her car seat she stiffing up her legs so her booty won't go in the seat. She's a smart little thing and maybe even a little stubborn at times. Don't worry it doesn't fly with me. I will out stubborn that child any day.
Oh and Jericho in case you are reading this that is NOT a challenge - it's just the truth.

I'm having a hard time blogging about one topic. I've just had a lot of randoms thoughts lately - can you tell.

Once again my thoughts are along these lines when it comes to post-election.

Seth and I are taking a class called Financial Peace University (FPU for short) and it's awesome. It's hard work but it's going to really pay off. I HIGHLY recommend it! If you want to know more about it feel free to ask.

I did it. I'm still awake and Seth is not home. Now that it's 1:16 am it's bed time.

Good night or should I say good morning

A few of my random thoughts

~ I read this today and couldn't agree more. That is exactly how I have felt the last few days. Proverbs 21:1 has also helped, God is still in control.

~ Tori is moving out this weekend. I am sad, but very excited for her. I am glad she's not moving far!

~ Jericho is walking on a more regular basis. Who knew all she needed was a little encouragement. Knowing that someone believed in her gave her the confidence she needed. I'm blessed that I got to be that person!

~ My baby is growing up too fast!

~ When is baby Jude going to make his appearance? I can't wait to meet this little guy!
(Seth's brother Khane & his wife Elizabeth are expecting their first child any day now!)

~ I'm hungry.

~ I hope some of these links will help me find a schedule that works for me. We had a good one then Jericho's turned one and her nap times changed. Our schedule hasn't worked since.

~ I'm need a schedule. I need to know what's coming next. I don't do good with surprises.

~ I'd still like to use cloth diapers.

~ The hot water on our washing machine is not working.

~ You cannot use cloth diapers if the hot water on the washer is not working.



~ I can't believe it's been in the 70 the last few days. It's been gorgeous!

~ Why am I sitting in her typing when it's so nice out?

~ Oh yeah because I'm waiting for my sweet girl to wake up any minute so we can go out and play!

~ I'm loving listening to Jericho giggle as she wakes up and plays in her crib.

~ I hope you are having a wonderful day!

Did You?

The Forgotten Birthday Party Pictures

The Invitation

(Yes, they were homemade!)

The Cake(s)

(All these were homemade too!)

The Daddy, The Mommy & The Birthday Bug

The Birthday Girl in The Birthday Swing
(Huge thanks to Bears Outdoor Playgrounds for The Birthday Swing!)

The Papa that wanted to play The Game
"Pin the Spot on the Lady Bug"

The Look from The Lady Bug he "Pinned the Spot" on

The Results of The Game

The Happy Little Boy with The Candy thanks to The Pinata!
(Thanks also to The Moni who got The Pinata and The Candy; The Kids loved it!)

The Best Gift
If you ask The Birthday Girl it was The Baby Doll
if you ask The Mommy it was The Bow : )


The Age

The Birthday Lady Bug eating The Birthday Lady Bug Cake

The Daddy taking The Birthday Bug to get clean

The Bath that cleaned The Lady Bug

The Result of The Birthday Party

The End!

Sorry

Obviously the picture of my little cheeser(previous post) didn't work like I thought it did. Sorry about that. I guess you'll just have to wait till we get the picture software loaded for new pictures.

My Little Cheeser

It worked this picture was taken from my phone and I actually got it to show up on the page. Yippy! This is smile that you see is how she looks 90% of the time, okay maybe not that much but she is a very happy girl and she cheeses it all the time! What a ham!

Lets Chat!

Hello old friend

How are you? It has been way too long since we've talked. Come on in have a seat and lets chat.

Wanna know why I've been gone? First let me ask you have you ever been without your computer, phone and camera all at the same time? No? Well, that was me for a bout two and a half weeks. That is why I was MIA. I must admit I miss all of them terrible at the beginning but I quickly got used to not having electronics. Honestly, I actually enjoyed it a little bit. But don't tell anyone they might think I'm crazy. Wanna know why I kind of liked not having them? I've never gotten so much stuff done in two and a half weeks in my life. Seriously it was amazing; you should try it sometime. For just a moment I knew what life was like before cell phones, laptops and digital cameras. I'm thankful for the technology that we have but sometimes we all need a break from it if not to realize how blessed we are by going without for a little while.

No, I was not fasting electronics, it was not on purpose that I went without these wonderful inventions for so long, it just so happened that our computer crashed, my phone when crazy (seriously only certain numbers worked and only some of the time and when I would hang up the phone would call them back on speaker and not let me hang up or take it off speaker, it really was crazy!) and the battery on the camera went dead (and wouldn't recharge) all within a few days of each other. What is even crazier to me is that I got them all back on the same day.

Everything has been working since Monday, but it was Harvest Party week. Seth is in charge of Harvest Party (which is a safe alternative to trick or treating put on by our church) Harvest Party is one of the craziest weeks of the year for us, plus I had a sick baby, so I had to pretended that the computer was still out of commission. I really had, I didn't want to but to there was just not other option. BUT Harvest Party is now over, the baby is feeling better and would you have guessed that the computer is working!!

Okay, okay I'll get back to the good stuff. The baby. I know you've missed seeing her adorable face more than anything. If I didn't get to see her every single day I think I'd cry so I can understand you sadness missing her beautiful face. Unfortunately we had to totally wipe out our computer and we haven't reloaded our picture software yet so I don't have any new pictures for you. Yet. But I will. Soon. I promise. Actually now that I think about it I might have one that I can email from my camera. Don' worrythough Jericho is just as cute as ever. Even when she had 102+ fever she was happy. I can't get enough of that girl.

Oh and she started walking but then she stopped walking. Ha. (I do have video of it. PTL the camera was working then. Once we get the computer stuff loaded I'll post it.) She walked for a night, one night, then decided that walking wasn't cool but crawling is. The girl is crazy she really doesn't care to do things unless she can do them perfectly. I have no idea who she could get that from. She will walk, on a regular basis, soon enough. I have to keep reminding myself that. I was in no hurry to have her start walking but I must admit I at the point where I ready. She is in need of new clothes but I don't want to get them till she starts walking because she'll just wear the knees out of them like she is doing now. I need the clothes that buy to last as long as possible. But she will walk in her own time. Have you read any of the books about a duckling named Ruby? Ruby is a careful duckling who likes to take things slowly, in her own time. So far I've found four in the series. I'd like to get these for Jericho because she is so much like Ruby. In case we forget or try to push her to fast Jericho always reminds us that she will do things in her own timing not ours. I love that girl! God continually uses her to remind me to slow down and be paitent. Far to often I try to push God into doing things on my timing rather than waiting for His. Praise the Lord He patient with me. Not willing to budge with His ajenda but slways reminding me - not your timing but mine. My timing is perfect! Sometimes I'm a little slow but I think I'm starting to understand.

Isaiah 55:8,9
For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

"As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Well thanks for chatting. When we first sat down to talk you probably never would have know that earlier in the day I had my undies in a bunch. I wanted things my way in my timing but as we sat here and talked I saw the error of my ways. It really helped thanks. We have more catching up to do so make sure you come on back! It was good to talk again!