Wednesday, January 28, 2009
I like things to be organized and well planned out. I want to know where I am going and what I am doing. For me to function and stay sane in life I need these things. I am learning that I need them in every area of my life. I thought blogging might be an acceptation to the rule, well actually I didn't think that, one day I just started blogging, without a plan, without a reason (other than to keep my family updated - which really is a good reason but you know that I mean) and after a year and a half I am finally realizing that it drives me crazy not having a plan for this stinking blog. Don't get me wrong I love writing, I just don't know what direction to take things.
Yet, maybe that's what blogging is all about. Writing about what life throws at you. The funny stories, the hard days, the simple things, the life changing moments, I could go on for hours. The problem is I don't feel like I am doing that.
In order to do that I need time. Now I have time, we all do, I just don't want to give this blog the amount of time that it takes to do the kind of blog I would like to have. Did ya get that? Ha!
Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that I either need to A) pick a few things to focus on and only write about them. B) give blogging all the time it needs so it can be what I always hoped - ok go ahead laugh, I am, because we both know that this is not going to happen. I have a young family to care of. I would give them my time over blogging any day! so lets move on to my last two options.... C) stop blogging. D) learn to not only be ok with the randomness while I blog but enjoy and have fun with it, in the amount of time allotted, of course.
We already know B is out. At this point I'm leaning more towards A or D. It's hard to let C be an option because I do enjoy blogging and I started it for my family, but I'd be lying if I said I haven't given C any thought, I have, it is an option.