I want you to know that I have a sickness. It's called blogging. Since I started blogging back in August I find myself in situations thinking, man, this would/will make a great blog or I wish I had my camera so I could take a picture for my blog, but I think the worst is when I'm trying to figure out what I think about something (or when I have been thinking about something and I'm trying to put it into words) I always find myself putting my thoughts in blog form. Thinking okay Tarah if you were to write a blog about this how would it sound. It's sad isn't it but it's very very true and you'd be amazed how much it helps me think through things. You'd also be amazed at how many blogs I write in my head but never post (I don't think you'd want to hear about all the crazy things I think about, plus I'd need more than 24 hours in a day if I were to post them all and that's not happening any time soon!)
Tonight I can't sleep and so I am going to share with you one of the blogs that I wrote in my head while trying to think through some things (while I should have been sleeping.)
Seth and I have been talking about a lot of deep things lately. Tonight our topic was on life. We talked about how hard it can be. While we were discussing how hard life often is I asked him what in our life (meaning since we've been together, not since we've been alive) has been easy (if anything.) We both thought for a moment before he answered. What Seth said was very profound (at least for me) and I believe it will stay with me for the rest of my life. Before I share his answer with you I want you to take a look at what our life has looked like since we started dating four and a half years ago.
So I started typing everything out from when we started dating till now and I ended up deleting it pretty quick because my point is not to depress you with how hard things have been for us. I think by some of my other posts (and if you know us in real life) you know that things haven't been easy. For this post that's all you need to know because I want to share a few things that have been easy. Sometimes it's hard for me to see the things in life that have been easy so tonight, as Seth and I were talking, it was a good reminder that life is not always hard (as I sometimes feel like it is)
Here are the top 3 things in my life (since Seth and I have been together) that have been easy for me (us) that I have totally taken for granted (but am praying I no longer take for granted)
3. A baby that sleeps well - This one is recent (as in 4 months) and I have totally taken it for granted because I haven't known anything else. Jericho has been a good sleeper from day one. For the 1st 6 weeks I only got up once at night to feed her and EVERY TIME she went right back to sleep (literally every time, I never once was up with a crying baby that wouldn't go back to sleep.) At 6 weeks she started sleeping through the night and has been doing it ever since. Besides vacation there has been maybe 4 times (maybe) that she has not slept a full 8 hours or more and most of those times she slept at least 6 hours.
2. Getting Pregnant - I get pregnant very easily. I know this is a gift from God. I don't feel like I have taken this one for granted as much as I have the other two because I have quite a few friends who either have never gotten pregnant or had a very hard time getting pregnant and I've seen how hard it is/was on them. My pregnancies have not been easy, but the getting pregnant part has been and I'm very thankful.
1. Loving Seth - That was Seth's answer to my question. He said, "Tarah, loving you has always been easy, it's one of the only things that has never been hard." When he said this I started bawling. He's right we've never had a hard time loving each other. I'm sitting here crying as I type because I have totally taken for granted how easy it has been for me to love Seth. There has not been one moment since I have met Seth that I have not wanted to be around him. Honestly, I don't think there has been a moment since I met him that I haven't loved him. I was in love with him for 2 years before we started dating. I knew I was in love with him and I tried so hard not to love him (because I didn't want him to break my heart) but it didn't work, I couldn't help but love him. How can you not love someone that you were made to be with? Yes, loving Seth has been by far the easiest thing for me to do in my life and I'm so glad! You may be thinking Tarah of course you love Seth he is your husband but take a moment and think about all the couples you know. Love doesn't come easy for everyone, many people have to work very hard at loving their spouse. I am not one of those people. The day Seth stepped foot into my life it became easier.
Thank you Lord for the test and trials that you take us through because the hard times make us who we are, but thank you so much for the things that come easy in our life because we wouldn't make it through the hard times without them. Help us not to take the easy things for granted but to realizes that they are precious gifts from you!