Wednesday, August 5, 2009

26 Weeks

No, I am not 26 weeks yet I am 24 weeks. But I've been thinking about that 26 week mark lately. No, 26 weeks is not any kind of milestone in pregnancy, most women pass it by without a thought.

But I'm not most women.

I always think about that 26 week mark during my pregnancies.

Gideon was born at 26 weeks.

When I was pregnant for Jericho and got to 20 weeks I looked at Seth and said can you believe I was only pregnant for Gideon another 6 weeks. It blows my mind when I think about it. Then I hit 26 week when I was pregnant for Jericho; I couldn't help but look at Seth's tattoo and think that's about the size of the tiny feet inside me. I have a feeling I'll do the same thing with this baby and each one that follows.

To me 26 weeks is almost sacred.

I don't know how to explain things this time around. The whole pregnancy has been a very neat, weird, hard experience. Starting off by finding out I was already 11 weeks along was awesome, but the 11 weeks before we knew I was pregnant was very hard. Finding out I was due on Gideon's birthday was cool. Finding out I was due on Gideon's birthday was hard. Finding out I was due on Gideon's birthday was weird.

At my last ultrasound they told us we were having a girl. Not a bad thing at all but surprising. We thought it was a boy. Honestly almost everyone that I know that has a November birthday is a boy. Gideon shares a birthday with his Papa, I have a nephew and a close friend who both had boys on the 14th, Gideon's doctor had a boy on the 17th, and two of my other friends both had boys on the 27th. When I thought of November I always thought that's when boys are born......until now. Now I'm starting to get use to the idea of a little girl....in November....at least I think I'm getting used to it....it still does seem just a little weird....but I can handle weird....at least till it becomes normal....because when it's normal....it's not weird anymore!

At my last ultrasound they also told us that I'd need to have another ultrasound in four weeks because they couldn't see the baby's spine. Four weeks from then I would be 26 weeks along. This got me thinking even more about that 26 week mark.

When I was pregnant for Jericho I had 3 ultrasounds. The first one was early on to date the baby. The next was supposed to be my 20 week, but I had it done at 17 weeks and the last one was somewhere around 32 weeks. None of them were even close to that 26 week mark. So, I'm excited about this next ultrasound because I get an inside look at our baby during a week that is very special to me. I already know what a baby at 26 weeks looks like on the outside and now I get to see a 26 week baby on the inside.

I'm still not really sure what to think when it come to this baby and the correlation this pregnancy seems to have with Gideon. It's all very weird to me. Between being due on Gideon's birthday and now having an ultrasound done at 26 weeks I feel like there is something I should be getting but somehow I'm missing it. Maybe it's all just a coincidence. Maybe not. Either way getting close to the 26 week mark has me wondering......

3 comments:

Smiling Sal :) said...

Do not be afraid...apparently God is blessing you with something beautiful that came through a very painful experience. Praying for you guys!

Anonymous said...

I don't believe in coincidences. I believe everything happens for a reason and I also believe that God loves to put things together all intertwined for those of us who are analytical. It makes us truly believe that he has His hands in everything. That makes it comforting somehow. Just rest in Him while you go through this season.
Blessings,
Colleen

Anonymous said...

Tarah I love that this baby is due on Gideon's birthday! A day I remember well! I love you so much and I can't wait to meet the baby girl growing inside you! Love you and Miss you and your family lots.

your baby sister,
Tori